Stand up… turn slightly to the left, wave at Claire… then pass 2 to 3 cubicles…

Turn right… walk straight ahead… Smile at Yna… Open the glass door… Head to the elevator…

Press G… wait awhile… then as the elevator descends… think of Anthony… Smile a bit…

Go to the nearest and most sought after Mini-Stop at the back of King’s Court Building 2. Buy Lucky Me Curly Spaghetti. Prepare P30, good for 2 packs.

Then walk around again… Glance at Cosmotech where "he" is probably on the phone right now… struggling to meet some 50 units quota… Pray…

Back at the office… tell Yna a simple joke… she will laugh at anything anyway… (Hi Yna!)

Then clean your mug… open one pack of the goods… set aside the sauce… crumble into pieces the noodles… put hot water into your cup. Open the microwave oven… put the cup inside… set the timer to 2 minutes, and the power to Med-High.

ANTICIPATE… talk to Anthony Foz, better yet… invite Claire for some good talk. DING!!!… get the cup… examine the contents… check if the noodles is almost done… pour the water out… but not the noodles… never the noodles…

Open the sauce… mix it well… just as you are mixing your life with many sorrows, joy, pain, sweet undoing memories…

Go back to you desk… eat some… make a blog… ask some questions to Claire… do not go back to work until you’re not done…

Instead… burn some CDs… get mushy on the music playing… tell yourself… YOU ARE ENTITLED TO ALL THE THINGS YOU WANT, YOU CRAVE, YOU DESIRE … You deserve it. I deserve it. We all deserve it.

Then when your spirit is renewed… GO BACK TO WORK. And start being deserving to the things you just did.