When it comes to being able to see a person and have an instant connection… count on me to react as soon as I possibly can…

It gives me chills in my spine that although a monogamous person like me is undeniably in love with my present love interest… it helps to know that we are indeed… NOT PERFECT as we thought we are…

We get to develop an ifatuation to somebody whom we made a connection… we share interest in… gives you music you can listen and realize… that one day is enough to crash down your resolve and rethink your ability to get all the temptations in your head…

In fact, you listen to the same song… you even banter on trivial things… you ask questions… you each answer them… you know it’s only a matter of time… but you can’t let yourself SLIP… even for just a day… you can think of HIM but just THINK all you like…

You cannot touch… you cannot resort into physical things… you can’t talk about feelings on each other… you know there’s what you called MAGIC… but just magic… it cannot be more than that… you just have to trust yourself that it helps… seeing him… talking to him… it makes you as I always call it… FAMILIAR… because the more things like that happens… the more you can WITHSTAND the temptation… but wait… don’t let your guard down… there’s more to it…

When you familiarize yourself to his presence… his scent… think of something other than HIS CLOSENESS… you’ll see… you’ll beat the odds… you’ll learn to let him go… it makes you sad for a while that things can’t happen between you two… THAT’S LIFE…

Then… after how many days… the magic is still there… but YOU ARE IMMUNED. Perhaps someday, life will be kind… they’ll put you two together… but don’t EVER count on SOMEDAYS…

So what do you do? Look to the person you’re in love with… make the best of what you have… It’s not settling for anything less than the "magic" guy… it’s what you called… COMMITMENT. Don’t forget… you love him… and in some ways, even you two are opposites, you found some things that made you LOVE him… so you know… HE’S ALL WORTH WHAT YOU GAVE UP… And maybe more…

It’s for you to find out… 

Oh… and the "magic" guy… his sole purpose is to be the subject of WHAT IFS stories you’ll tell your grown-up grandchildren… and LOLO is still the BEST… because you made him be…