It just occurred to me that everyone is MARRIED and HAVING KIDS… and me? Well, I don’t have a problem being alone… but sometimes… You ask yourself if you are being left behind… if your being single is only a matter of days… if your life has been wasted with you running around and keeping yourself WORK-BUSY and not really having a LIFE as what they frequently call it.

I don’t even have that thinking… I guess I’m just wondering if my life really should better start soon… that I can’t waste anymore time… but I REFUSE TO BELIEVE IT. Because I am having the best time ever… and just really being happy with my friends having kids and partners of their own.

I’ll be Ninang forever… So what?

I still can’t convince myself that I should marry now or that I should have kids… I don’t know… all I know is that… I have a plan to marry and it’s not gonna happen soon… I have things to fulfill and I might end up wondering that If I wasn’t married I would probably be soaking at the Carribean sun and watching sunsets while having a beer at any beach… I have plans… and I am feeling it… I’ll be there sooner than you think…

But I’ll be off with marriage muna. I can’t see myself being hopelessly devoted to someone and not being able to do what I want to do. Yes, I can imagine what my boyfriend would say… but the thing is… we have plans… that we’ll go there and here… but nothing would make you feel so engrossed with yourself than traveling the world alone… may you be having coffee in the streets of Italy… or having Pizza in New York… or Tequila in Ibiza… ALONE.

I guess I really am a LONER… And I think I should be thankful that I found someone who sleeps whenever… wherever… just so I could enjoy the music through my Ipod and getting cozy with an embrace… thanks to the person beside me…